Blessed sleep, something I never, or seldom get. Fibromyalgia is the culprit, or part of it, doesn’t matter, the bottom line is my sleep is terrible. Very seldom do I get a full nights sleep. Some nights I get no sleep at all, and all this with the help of a sleeping pill.
I’ve gotten used to it, I don’t like it, my husband doesn’t like it, but hey, it is what it is. I’m grateful when I get 4-6 hours sleep, and truthfully, I have to nap most days. It’s funny, on the days I do nap, I sleep better at night. Most of you are thinking, don’t nap, you’ll sleep better at night. That doesn’t work for me. Believe me, I’ve tried it.
But I’m grateful when I sleep, and when I can’t I accept it. I forgive myself for not doing everything I think I should be doing in a day. I forgive myself when I’m not up to par.
Imagine how the caregiver feels. it’s so hard to stand in someone else’s shoes. Another reason I published my secret journal, Behind The Mask. Being a caregiver is hard enough, it’s even harder when you have to keep it a secret as I did.
I hope my story inspires others to Adopt A Caregiver. Every caregiver needs a friend, someone who won’t judge them, lets them vent, talk, get it out, someone who encourages the caregiver to forgive themselves, to journal, to listen to music and to just be there.
Give the gift that lasts forever and costs nothing. Adopt A Caregiver and tell them your friend Helene sent you.
Keep love and kisses in your life. Helene

Writing Meeting
I went to a writing meet-up last night. I’m always impressed by the quality of the writing, and the imagination of writers. I can’t wait to find 2 or 3 people or even 1 person who lives near me and will brainstorm and mentor me as I write a novel.
The best part is of course the feedback, which was wonderful. They said to change the name of one character, too much like the other name, and to make one person more humerous. My book is filled with emotion, and adding a little humor is a great suggestion.
The other thing I relearned, is to keep going, don’t go back and rework chapter one forever and ever. Just write, keep writing until the end, then go back and use post it notes, highlighters, whatever works for you and higlight whatever you want. Could be the first word of each sentence, description, dialog, setting, looking for vivid verbs. I do keep a notebook of words I like and I use that notebook a lot.
I also have a Bits & Pieces notebook and I have quotes, small scenes, descriptions, words, advice, whatever I want to remember and I keep them in a folder. I add pictures, names of books I like anything to jog your memory or jumpstart your writing.
First lines jumpstart my writing, and I have about 550 of them finished. I love doing them.
Saw my doctor today. I have the lowest Vitamin D level he has seen, so I’m starting to take Vitamin D. I hope with all my heart it help with the fatigue. I want to do so much more in one day, but I can’t seem to keep up.
Keep love and kisses in your life. Helene
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