Here I Am Again

It’s time I showed my face again. New ideas running through my head about writing and about life. I’m living every day as if it were my last. When I’m feeling good that is. Life is all about attitude. And I keep my attitude working hard to stay in the right place. All with a smile.

I am writing again, and this time, loving what I’m doing. I’m reading and rereading books on writing, and doing an actual story. I might need some help brainstorming in the near future, so stay tuned.

Howard is doing fine. Still going to the Neurologist about the new diagnosis of Alzheimer’s. She calls him weird. He is not impaired, and he does better on those tests every time he goes there. She wants his brain, but he told her she had to wait until he died. I love his sense of humor.

This time around Howard is reading my writing. He never did that before. I have to say he is quite enthralled with it. I suppose he never knew I had a little bit of talent in writing. Neither did I, which is why I never showed him any of it.

Life is good, at 84, a little bit limited. We can’t do the things we used to do. Now I am the driver, and we get out to doctors, errands, and our kids. We are so fortunate to have so much family close to us. My almost six year old geat granddaughter lives a half mile away. We see her at least 3-5 times a week. And daughters and granddaughters come for dinner too, so four nights a week we are busy.

Living in a 55 plus small community also has it’s perks. I started a writing club here and we have been doing this for the fourth year. I play Mah Jongg when we can get a game, and Meditation when it is being done in our center. That is enough for me. I also do a little bit of knitting when I have the time.
But, right now is writing time.

See you all soon. Remember Alzheimer’s isn’t contagious. Adopt a caregiver in your neighborhood, and let that person know you care and want to be able to listen. Do it by email, phone, text, just be there for that person. ISt is the gift that keeps on giving and costs nothing.
Love and Kisses to all.

An Old Post That Is Still Meaningful


Today is August 20, and this appeared on my blog several years ago.

The most important things in my life are my family and friends; my passion for writing, reading and knitting; and my self respect.

My book, Behind the Mask, shows the complete range of emotions a new caregiver goes through each day.

Alzheimer’s disease is not contagious, yet the caregivers are usually left alone without the support of friends and neighbors, even family. This disease can last for many years, leaving the caregiver worn out and alone.

Adopt A Caregiver is my unique way of giving back. All you have to do is check your neighborhood, your social clubs, church, synagogue, your doctor’s office, the Alzheimer’s Caregiver’s message boards, and the Mayo Clinic message boards.

Just send an email or phone the person who needs a friend, listen and come back often to let him/her know you care and are thinking of them. Just being there to listen is a huge help.

Adopt a Caregiver. Give something back: Contribute to the well being of people who are so busy caring for others.

The above was on my blog a few years ago.

Now I’m faced with my husband’s new diagnosis, early stage of Alzheimer’s Disease,

We are taking it one day at a time, making memories each day and being grateful of the time we have together and with our family. They are our greatest supporters.

Keep love and kisses in your life.

Alzheimer’s Disease AGAIN

Can you believe this one? My husband was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease 20 years ago. Obviously whatever was going on with him then never got much worse. But we had to keep it a secret because he was still working. As the years went by, and it was obvious it wasn’t A.D. the doctors would not take him off the A. D. medication. So from 1993 to 2000 he suffered from terrible stomach pain, that came and went for years.

Transfer to today, August 16th, 2013. We learned two days ago, by a second opinion, that this time he did have early, mild Alzheimer’s Disease. Even the Neurologist smiled and said, “Funky case, never saw anything like this one before.”

Anyone out there with this same experience?

The last time I kept everything inside, and published my journal from those years, Behind The Mask…..I thought it was so good to rip off that Mask.

Now that I can talk about it, I haven’t shed a tear, just feel overwhelmed. We even went out and bought cemetary plots……how’s that for jumping the gun?

It’s hard enough to hear this once, but to get slammed in the stomach twice..I think you get the picture.

Right now life is crazy. Making plans, doing things in fast motion, trying to slow down, but doing more than ever. At 82 I find myself doing an online writing course, which I am loving, but it takes up a lot of time.

Thank goodness for a close and loving family, almost all of whom live within a 30 minute car ride, some are very close, like a half mile and one mile… We are blessed and thankful for that. We do have a built in support group.

Every day I try to find things to be grateful for, and to find a little bit of beauty in my life. I meditate also, which helps and I read and read, and read. My escape from the reality of the world.

Next time I’ll talk about my writing, my writing group, and some books that I highly recommend.

Keep love and kisses in your life. And remember to Adopt A Caregiver. Give the gift that keeps on giving, without costing you anything.


Grateful List Overflowing

My grateful list is overflowing. My family and grand grand-kids are growing up so fast. It’s exhausting and exciting keeping up with them. My husband’s birthday was Saturday and my great grand-daughter has been singing him Happy Birthday since Friday. She is just over two and one half.

My writing group in our community is going well, and I am loving it. We have started a Bits and Pieces notebook that includes everything you can think of. Pictures of characters, snippets of conversation, quotes, lists, ideas for stories, words and more words. I could go on and on but you get the picture.

Our book club’s selection was Defending Jacob. Our meeting is tonight and I can’t wait to hear what everyone has to say about the book. And I keep wondering what anyone would do in a situation like that. I highly recommend this book.

I am organizing my short stories, editing them and will be offering them as an e book as soon as I can finish. I am also working on First Lines to start you on your way to writing your story. There are over 600 writing prompts and hopefully soon, we can finish that also.

Until next time,

Keep love and kisses in your life.


Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all

Wishing everyone a happy holiday, a healthy one, and a safe one. It’s been a long time since I have written. Usually this time of year I send out a year end letter. But, not this year.

Because, this year the only real news is that we have moved back to California and we have a new great granddaughter. Life is good.

I have been lazy about my writing. But I have been knitting up a storm, both for myself and the baby.

Last night I found out my grandson and his wife are going to have a little boy next May. Two great grand babies, how lucky and blessed we are.

My gratitude list keeps growing.

Please be kind to everyone, we all need a little kindness in our lives.

Keep love and kisses in your life. Helene

Gratitude of a new Great Grandma

Wow! Have been so busy watching this new baby, holding her, admiring her, not taking time for much of anything else.

Watching her face, stretching her arms and legs out, amazing sight.

Also, how much she has changed in the week she has been with us. A change, small, but interesting. Nothing like a new born baby to rev up your heart, your energy, and you gratitude

It was a rough birth, but that’s over and all that counts is that she is a healthy, and a happy and contented baby.

Beautiful, of course, no; rather she is gorgeous. I could hold her forever. Four generations of women. Now that’s gratitude.

Keep love and kisses in your life. Helene

A Baby/A Miracle

My brand new great grand daughter was born this morning at !2:15 a.m. by C Section. Labor was prolonged and not progressing, baby was sunny side up, so at last minute they did the C Section.

Thank goodness it’s over. The baby is a precious miracle.

Wishing everyone a happy and healthy Thanksgiving.

Love and kisses Helene

Grateful List

Thanksgiving is next week. I hope by that time I will have my new grand daughter, but if not it will only be a few days later. All I really want is a healthy little girl.

I’m grateful that the whole family will get together, or most of us. I’m grateful that my grandson is flying in from Minnesota on Monday night, and I am pleased that I can let him use my car.

I’m grateful that all my grandchildren are good kids, working hard, going to school ( two of them) and one is going to be a teacher, and the other, well, it’s too soon to tell. But, I know he will do well, and do something that he will love doing.

I’ve answered some tough questions in the last few days, some verbally and some in my head.

My husband asked how long my knitting phase will last, and I said, “Until my hands hold out.”

We also talked about age, and end of life issues, and most of this is in my head. One day soon, I will write it out, so there is no question that when the time comes, my wishes will be known.

Yesterday I bought more wool to make another blanket for the baby, today I bought three books. That is the extent of my spending. Everything else right now is not important.

Trying to think of something to buy my great grand daughter, that I can buy every year, so she will have a collection of  ???

Stay healthy, keep love and kisses in your life. Helene

Give the gift that lasts forever and costs nothing.

Adopt A Caregiver.

To Those Who Serve Our Country

We thank you for serving our country to keep us free! I applaud your generosity and your courage. Men and women alike, you are all my heros.

I am 78 years old, but believe me if our freedom is attacked, I would gladly serve in any way I could to save our country.

A prayer goes up every day for all the armed forces of these United States.

Stay safe.

Keep love and kisses in your life. Helene

The Quiet Before The Storm

I’m feeling the quiet and I must admit I like it. Seeing a lot of the kids and grandkids and I like that too.

But the new great grand daughter is due on 11/29. Will she be early. How should we handle Thanksgiving? Then comes the storm. And we are resting up for it. Can’t wait to hold this child in my arms. Already I’m smiling. A real bundle of joy! I have finished knitting her things, at least for now.

Waiting for my grandson and his wife to find out if they are having a boy or girl and their colors, and already I’m looking around for things to knit for this new baby. It’s so exciting.

Right now I’m knitting for me, and I want to get back to writing. Probably work on my memoirs. I’m going to do it in stages, and in anecdotes and actual stories that will stand on their own.

Be happy, do your thing and enjoy every day. No one knows what tomorrow brings. Make some magical memories and store them away for a rainy day.

Keep love and kisses in your life. Helene